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Friday, September 13, 2013

back home

Portland Japanese Garden
And I'm back.  I've been MIA this week because I decided at the last minute to attend our friend's funeral in Portland with Paul.  The days were long and hard and beautiful and even fun at times, and I'm so glad I was able to be present with everyone.  I flew back Wednesday and ended up getting stuck in Denver, which really challenged my patience.  I made it home safely yesterday, and now I'm getting back into my routine.   

I'm on a bit of an emotional roller coaster today.  My mixture of sadness, grief, and celebration of my friend's life fit a lot better in Portland with people who knew our friend and understood what had happened.  Grief, sadness, and celebration are misplaced puzzle pieces now that don't quite fit back into normal life.  Things feel off, and I know it will be a struggle to keep up with all my regular activities and responsibilities. 

And so things will go for a bit.  

The opportunity with these feelings is a chance to evaluate my self-care habits, remember what's important to me, and reshape my life (at least for the time being) so that I can fit all my puzzle pieces back together. 

And it will happen. 

I won't continue to write about this experience regularly because I want to refocus on the simply joys in my life.  I may write about our friend or the grieving process again in the future, but for now I'll just say that I appreciate all the support I've received - it's meant the world to me and Paul. 

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